My Feelings

I have been accused of not writing enough on here about my feelings… so here goes.

A day of feelings, in the life of WhiteEyebrows:

• I woke up and felt tired and congested.
• Then I felt stinky… so I took a shower… where I felt refreshed.

Then I went to work and I felt the following:

• Overworked… I have way too much on my plate.
• Overwhelmed… How am I going to get it all done?
• Creative… when I actually dug into my work.
• Hungry… time for LUNCH!
• Frustrated… when I made no balls in while I played pool.
• Angry… when a conference call was stupid.
• Confused… when I couldn’t figure out a schedule for a product I have to deliver.
• Saudades (that’s a Brazilian feeling of missing someone or something)
• Tired… a few days of no sleep really started catching up.
• Proud… I kicked a project’s butt and enjoyed some accolades.
• Expectant… can’t wait until after work
• Happy… work ended!

Then I went to a show and felt:

• Stuffed… from dinner beforehand.
• Interested… I remembered most of the show.
• Reflective… on the first time I saw the show as the only white man in a sea of beautiful, proud, black women in New York.
• Embarrassed… at some of the inappropriate content.
• Pity… for Celie and others who only know abusive men their whole life.
• Redemption… for some of the characters who changed their ways.
• Sadness… that some people take a lifetime to figure out some basic principles.
• Overkill… when they took FOREVER between bows at the curtain call.
• Anticipation… that my car had been towed since I parked in an unmarked spot.

As I returned home and considering my day, my life, and all the great things going on, I felt one more thing… ALIVE!